I am so sad that I will leave here tomorrow because that means I will also be leaving him too. I keep redirecting the conversation whenever he brings up my leaving only because it really does break my heart! I have said a million and one times that I wish I could just have the best of both worlds together. Something about this place is magical, and I just want to bottle it all and take it everywhere with me!
At the same time I really really miss home! I miss my friends, my dog (yes Sammie, I miss you!), Belle (couldnt leave her out!), my language, my bed, and just not having to figure out cuturally appropriate things to do. I have cried so many times here just because I realize that either Humphry or I will always be in this position. One of us will always be missing those things that are truly a part of us.
Either way, I know that I cant have both worlds together. It is time for me to leave so that Humphry and I can begin the process of getting to be together permenantly! I have been assured by several people that the process is not as bad as it seems. This is what I am praying for. More than anythig please please pray for our hearts as we let God lead us on a different part of our journey. Also, please pray for safe flights for me! I leave here on Thursday at about 4:30PM your time!
I promise to upload tons of pictures and videos when I get home! Oh and for some comic relief...here is Humphry's best friends impersonation of how our "goodbye" will be. Hilarous! I assure you it will not be this dramatc, but I also assure you I will be crying like a big baby!
Love!
<3 Kayla
Cute. Things will fall into place and you both won't be sad or feel like a part of you is missing...because you will make each other whole!
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